[ he waits, with far more patience than he's portrayed himself as having, for her answer. when it comes, he's ready to give her his full attention once more. ]
I understand what that's like.
[ sharing one's soul with another. it's not just lip service, coming from him. he thinks of the scar on jiang cheng's chest, and the matching one on his old body. ]
'Wanting to be someone' is the loudest and longest plea in lives like ours, Miss Rey. To meet someone who... will look at you and see you? I don't blame you, for having a vision like that. It's just one more iteration of the oldest pain we've experienced as orphans.
I love you dearly. Very much so. And even I know that it's not enough. It doesn't reach the places it needs to.
I can't tell you that it's not worth it. Going down a darker path, I mean. I've done it, to save people I loved so much that I knew destroying myself in the long run would be worth it. It gave me worth, being a terrible man.
I suppose in the long run -- your vision may be asking you to make the ugliest decision. Do you choose yourself, or do you choose everyone else. You have two paths, and I think both are bullshit. So, make a third.
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I understand what that's like.
[ sharing one's soul with another. it's not just lip service, coming from him. he thinks of the scar on jiang cheng's chest, and the matching one on his old body. ]
'Wanting to be someone' is the loudest and longest plea in lives like ours, Miss Rey. To meet someone who... will look at you and see you? I don't blame you, for having a vision like that. It's just one more iteration of the oldest pain we've experienced as orphans.
I love you dearly. Very much so. And even I know that it's not enough. It doesn't reach the places it needs to.
I can't tell you that it's not worth it. Going down a darker path, I mean. I've done it, to save people I loved so much that I knew destroying myself in the long run would be worth it. It gave me worth, being a terrible man.
I suppose in the long run -- your vision may be asking you to make the ugliest decision. Do you choose yourself, or do you choose everyone else. You have two paths, and I think both are bullshit. So, make a third.